-Thurs, 10:12 P.M.
~Color Me Once by the Violent Femmes is playing
Why do I consistently want what I cannot have, is it the distance or the vague feeling of achievement after grasping the goal? In affairs of the heart, I'm rather-
~I Am The Highway by Audioslave comes in as The Violent Femmes fade..
-adept at ignoring what is and what should never be. The so-called laws of attraction are thrown to the wind, and honestly, I generally give them a good fuckin' flight; but, when there's that one person you can't get anything right around, and she just so happens to be a good friend, AND your best friend's sister,well your about screwed, I think. These sort of things don't usually get me down (much less happen), but right now, it's holding me pretty low, root level. If I really wanted someone who was anyone, there'd be no problem; this is someone who's unlike anyone. She's a free spirit, a free thinker, original, naturally beautiful, she-
~Feeling Good by Muse steals my speakers from Chris Cornell's waning vocals
-she... she. she.
I'm tired of that talk, it's just some sort of cheap emotional emancipation that could be bought on a bar stool. I think describing my mood as uneasy is a rather broad; I am shifting from "if-we-gave-it-a-shot" wonderings to thoughts of how I spend an entire day. Fucked up, drunk, or without direction.
It's tragic to sacrifice time, but I need to actually know something died for my sins.